why do girls wanna be skinny?

why do i wanna be skinny??

i know why.. because people tell me i'm fat. but many others tell me i'm not. i dont understand why i wanted to be skinny so much, but i dont really care anymore.

as in, i know i'm not fat. fleshy yes, but i realise that i really like what i am now. if it changes naturally, okay i dont mind la heh.. as in.. if i naturally become skinny. of course i wont eat like siao and make myself fat fat la.

eh. i dont wanna say i'm fat already la. heh.

hmmm anyways, to this certain someone, of whom i'm sure u wont get hold of my blog, what are u trying to say in ur msgs? (this person is NOT from my section)

be clearer can? haha. -looks at peee. stop laughing. totally not funny-

anyway, i'm quite happy now. dunno why.

enjoyed chalet a lot a lot. yep. i enjoyed e late night games. for the first time i didnt sleep the most. haha. i made nice fish according to karto and pee and everyone..

POLAR BEAR was certainly unforgettable -aye, pee? haha and the drinking games. so crappy. i didnt lose la. like peee and cheng and zhihui KEPT losing. a pity ling qian couldnt stay. it would be so much fun with her around.

i didnt drink much... THANKS JASON GOH JIN YANG for my passion fruit vodka which didnt taste like anything else but regular passion fruit soda but made my face red!!!!!

ehs.. do u think i've grown up hahaha

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i just got back from chalet today. was a funny one. totally nv go beach or swim AT ALL. bbq made a few pple xie du zi. haha. could've been the fish. but i washed it clean!!!!!

gees. i'll blog more abt e chalet when i feel like it.

yawns.....

i didnt learn how to cycle after all. was too scared.

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hmmm.

My pastor said something really important today. Bitterness towards people. People who hurt you. people whom you dont like. People who said nasty things to you, people whom you think cant grow up. I've come to face the fact that i've been bitter towards people. there is healing, tho, that has taken place. and i know my heart is changing. Not that I want to boast or anything, but yea, action speaks louder than words. so i guess in order to facilitate healing, reconciliation should take place. or rather, an effort to reconcile.

to certain people. i've already tried to reconcile. and it's up to you and not up to me. but forgiveness as i've released, we'd never be the same friends as we were before by flesh. but only God can change that fact. and He will.. And i'm not here to judge. but God has dealed with me over these matters. have YOU allowed Him to deal with you? It's really up to you how you want to live your life. you've been behaving saintish. no one actually notices.. only a bare couple. but have you noticed how much YOU need God? You know who God is but do you actually KNOW Him? (p.s. non-christians i'm not referring to you, as in the you is not you. sorry if i sound offensive) Do you know what God is trying to do with your life? you only seem to stray further from Him. All this talk abt being concerned for others. I just wanna let you know that we are all concerned for your own spiritual growth.

i really wont say i'm a saint cos i really am not. bitterness, i've experienced it. still in the process of pruning and cutting off, cutting off. i've to work terribly hard~ but i know that i come to terms with my sin and i try my best to live a life with God. so i'm not preaching here. but you say how much values mean to you. yes values are impt. i agree with that totally. but the way you see things, and the way u speak, yes you dont use vulgar language, i know, however are really... i dunno how to put it.. not thru God's eyes? well then, all values n commands boil down to one, "love your neighbour as yourself." gossiping, all that? i've indulged in before. that's why from now onwards i'll try my best to reduce, till i stop taking pleasure in putting others down intentionally.

if you truly see someone thru God's eyes, you wont speak of them that way when they try their best to serve God. has it occurred to you that although their problem is not fully solved, God is processing the solution? btw.. the problem is fully solved now thank you.

i dont feel bitterness against you.. not like how i felt the last time.. because i know that God broke it off. and it's unholy.. i should see you in the way God does. i wish i can just leave u there by yourself. but that's as good as taking revenge. i wont do the same thing you did to me. Instead i will love you. I hope that we still can be friends. i guess we still are... God taught me to love. and i WILL love you, with what it takes, tho it urks me to see u in ur ultra short skirts in svc, and the other one, being 2 different pple altogether.

misunderstandings cast aside, i pray that things will be alright.. my heart will no longer ache for this friendship, cos i believe it prolly is already there. but until u change your heart, i dunno how to help you. revenge gives more than nothing but trouble. no point. right?

u take care..

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ahh..

my PL band girls... my darlings~ haha. well done well done on tuesday morning. I hope none of u are sad anymore, because you really did well. and the seniors (including me and especially me) are sooooo proud of you!! i really see your passion for the music and i see your hard work. work harder! international competition is next. more prestigious!! haha =D

and they stood at the edge of the sky.. not a very nice piece. Chorale and Shaker Dance 2 was better. hahaha. a nicer piece, at least~ i'm so happy. i hope they're happy too. they make the juniors proud of them. and the seniors too, i'm sure i'd mentioned.

well. NP band is gearing up for Pops & Classics Funvies!! details will be given again..

I'd like to extend my congratulations to tsmb and Shuqun band. they did well. Peee said that the tsmb pple are happpy happpppppy pple.. PL.. be just as contented okay? you'll do better next time! =D Shuqun, tho not as happy, but hey! they all but in as much effort!! effort is all that counts, really. so szeto~ don be sad with them. be happy for them!! haha

i wanna ton~ i cant wait for chalet~

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SWING GIRLS ROCKS!!!!!

hahaha. it's like how cool!!! omg... sorry i hadnt blogged about this earlier on. too busy with G12 lately. it was an amazing show about band and all. Tomoko is sooooooooooo cute!! hahaha.

i'm so tempted to buy my very own second-hand instrument!! =D (those who've watched, you know what i mean!!)


okay. now abt G12.

LORD, BIRTH FORTH THE VISION!! GIVE ME THE VISION OH GOD!!! i pray that from me the multitudes will birth forth. i pray that my girls will learn and understand spiritual parenthood, the vision, and the magnificant glory of God.

oh what a wonderful time i had. i thank God i had like 3 days to spend with the church and with Him. tho tiring, but i really learnt A LOT during the conference. my life will nv be the same again. will talk more abt it when i can.. prolly over the next few days yea? i'm gonna sleep now~ jaa ne!

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harlow cheng yeee peeee and whoever...

swing girls is out in the theatres! okayy.. only cathay theatres. it's in cine. tmr, band prac resumes. go watch swing girls before band starts??? so exciting~

i'm so bored. i wanna ton. i'm bored. peee are u bored... i'm bored... cheng yee are you bored.... i'm boreddd...

i sound ridiculous.

SYF is coming. i havent been back to PL band in a month or so. i really wonder how they're doing. prolly going back on thurs and fri. I guess there will be significant improvement, but i sure hope it's good enough for what they're aiming for - gold. it didnt come true 2 years ago, though i think they really did their best and played extremely well. I have faith in Sir, Mr Tan. He always is with the band. No matter what the girls go thru, he's there to protect them from vicious monsters like the teachers. i wont name who. seems like only ms doreen lau is nice enough. haa.

PL band, all the best to you! if you girls get a gold, you'd really be standing at the edge of the sky!

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i didnt go for dg last night. i feel.. very very very very very very very very very very bad. no not because they'd be angry or anything. i know they wont. i had a really weird cum lame reason for not turning up la. plus seeing me with clar and the rest would make it seem really... u know.. but i guess i missed out on a lot la. catching up with the rest. but i had fun at CG la. =D

I suddenly realise how fortunate i am to have people around me who care and love me for who i am. nevermind those people who dont understand me. but these people, though some still cant comprehend my personality, still overlook it to really love me as a person and a sister and a friend. and i really thank God for these people. People in church, people in sch.. pple in band.. and of course my family~

I'd particularly like to thank my g12 leader, Sarah, for constantly praying for me, talking to me, and understanding the difficulties i go thru. i understand definitely that Sarah has to go thru her difficulties in life as well. others may forget, but Sarah wont. and my dg, though all of them are busy, they still do speak to me and make me feel a part of them. i really realy appreciate that!

I'd like to thank Clarice Zhang also. for sharing with me a really low period of my life. going to her house and spending the day there last monday to study for PR was pleasant. haha. i got to know her a lot better. and we spent some time teasing Shaun Teo. hahaha. switching identities and all. of course, mr Chris didnt get any idea what we were doing. in fact, smart pants didnt even know we switched identities. hahaa. maybe he did. just couldnt bother with our nonsense. hahaha

Thanksssss fua for the birthday present, tho it's the most simple one yet, besides my dg's and sarah's card, it's my most treasured! i dunno why, but perhaps this is because it's like another card... and from another church friend, and you n ernest n yh are so close to me. thanks so much!! appreciate it like anything man!

thanks peee, shuang, evon and others from band.. and jason goh and pei yi (tho not from band), u guys bring joy and laughter into my life. and were there for me in my darkest times as well. thanks thanks thanks. because u guys just are great~ P.S. peee, jasom, pei yi, more tonning?!!

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the exams are finally over ey?

some of them are still not done with their exams. fu and ernest and their fellow 12. clarence is going in NS this fri. boy am i gonna miss that goofy kid. we're the march babies yea.

had a lot of fun last night. had dg, then i was told we were having this meeting cum reunion for amazing race committee, so i left dg earlier. but it seems like there was only narash me n clar. haha. joke man. we sat around in the food court kidding and fooling around till about 10+ when the foodcourt aunty chased us out. we decided to go to mcdonald's to chill. weijian and clarence wanted to drink orange mcfizzzz. haha. and there was a mc cafe there, the aunty gave all of us a $1 off anything we wanted la cos clarence was going into NS. haha. and we just hung out till 11. i was tired. had no idea why..

really had a lot of fun catching up with narash and clar. a pity the other amazing race committee members werent there. fu had to go for a family dinner. hy wasnt at service. biling had to meet her girls. joseph was in camp. joshua teo was catching up. so. there was only me n narash n clarence.

i miss the amazing race! it was like a year ago, but it was so much fun and amazing. we saw some friends who were brought there who came to know Christ. haha. i miss the midnight spent at beok reservoir, and the early morning rushed down in cab to the botanical gardens with fua.. and hy.. and then little india and so on. it was.. really funny. hahahaha. i was like freaked out by the ants, and pastors came to see us and all. it was so fun!

the committee gained the most, i guess. we had so many meetings to settle the plans and all, budget and everything. in fact, we had never thought we'd make it, but we managed to pull the whole thing together! i was proud of the participants as well. haha.

oh well. enough of the old days. Pastor Khong said last night that we are to forget the old days, whether good or bad, and continue living, remembering that God has a greater present n future for us. we must always learn to be content with what we have, no?

alright, i guess this is enough of typing. i'm gonna settle Yuki kun's image. he looks like a girl. gees.

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Getting rather cynical, I see.
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Don't ask me why. Not now.

Before I grew up I saw you on a cloud I could bless myself in your name and patch you on my wings "Life is hard and so is love, child, believe in all these things"

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